Tuesday, October 21, 2014

A HANDFUL OF SCATTERED SEED



ROOTED AND GROWING
I am living in the garden grown, one of the many seeds sown. I make no determination towards my beauty of being or appalling uselessness in the gardener’s seeing. I was birthed in this place and given no conditions to how I should grow. I would like to be a flower plucked to make a bouquet for a lover’s heart, yet it is not my fate to determine if I am good enough to be a part of that kind of display. I may after all be nothing but a weed choking off life for something more pretty or useful than me. No life can resist its fate, be it bountiful or, another kind of life to abate. I am but a simple thing grown from a seed to fill a space until I have proven I am worthy of life in this place. In silence I my fate await and ‘til the seasons turning no matter my physical being I will enjoy the rain and the sun as my simple reason for being.


© M Durfee
10.21.2014

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  1. Weeds can be beautiful, too, even if people didn't plant them intentionally. Perhaps you are stronger and more useful than you think, more of a tree than a flower...

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    1. Cheryl I often feel like I came out of a passing birds ass. One can be surrounded by so much need that even old growth trees get cut for someone else benefit. Take that which thrives on it's own for a mutual concern and greed comes from an unseen direction and chips away until even the stoutest of trees fall.

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  2. it is not my fate to determine if i am good enough...that line itself says much and carries wisdom if we can live that way....not sure if i am ready to turn over all control of my fate...i do think our decisions can determine it in some ways...

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    1. I am bored with decisions Brian, I have made enough to allow myself to not care about anything other than...reality as it is, and accept it.

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  3. Oh my! A simple seed, occupying a space...Most touching.

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    1. Rosaria it has been so long since I have moved I have become rooted in this garden, simply waiting and watching for the next culling.

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  4. I like the metaphor of the seed and garden ~ it makes me reflect on our purpose in life ~ Though we can't resist our fate, we have a choice or a hand to where we will ultimately journey on ~

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    1. The next journey Grace; can be looked at as a deliberate movement towards or is it a road down which we will walk that has been ordained by another? I guess it is a matter of where you place your trust, some gardener may see a weed and another a medicinal herb.

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  5. ...and who may judge you to be weed or flower, certainly not a humble human being. And yes, we do have the choice of where we go, what we do, how often we change our minds and outlook on life.

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    1. Ahh Shadow I am judged daily, if not by myself then by them in the world I am surrounded by. Choices...in this world choices are not made with determination of anything other than how many zeroes are behind the first digit.

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    1. I suppose there is a metaphor in there somewhere but rain and sun only allow for upward movement in the natural order.

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  7. I think weeds get a bad rap. I think they're all flowers waiting to be plucked until sometime determines they are too common, too fruitful and then they are labeled pests. As always, your writing provokes thought, Mark.

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  8. Mark, the loss of Dane still has me barely caring about anything.

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So Walking Man I was thinking...