Tuesday, September 30, 2014

LEAVE ME BEHIND I'LL BE FINE



NEVER TOO OLD TO REMEMBER
Looking around me I see the society that has moved so far away from free I no longer see much point in playing a part of the deception that my thinking is a misconception. In a land that longs for more wars to get more customers into our weapon stores all the while the facts that babies are starving is not realistic when it is just reported as some foregone acceptable statistic.

I have so much of nothing left to offer that I find society willingly lets me be to hopefully to move on a bit faster. I can’t claim a huge stash of cash or skunk weed seed, no mash for a still or will to war anymore for anything of riches; it all looks to my wrinkled old face as greed knocking at society’s door.Big fancy well dressed sons a bitches.

I know my needs, have become comfortable in them, I spend time finding ways to have mercy on me when I don’t chase after them. I am aware that my needs are filled by the earth, time left alone and, chances care

I was walking on warm Ohio winter day and never knew I needed a coat. I nearly passed by the one laying there cast aside in the dirt, bent over and picked it up and shook off the frozen crud stuck on that old rag of a coat. Put it atop my pack and walked on past the night fall. I grabbed that old ragged looking coat all buttons still attached; it kept me free of the cold.

And that is how my life was and again now always will be. After that day of the coat my life I worked it away and wound up broke trying to stay even with my greed; but now I am older and more wrinkled and have come back to what I knew as a child, leave my greed alone and the earth will see to my need. Society, you’ve moved on so very far beyond and without me.  

© M Durfee
9/30/14

16 comments:

  1. Saw a homeless woman walking along the highway the other day. While along the highway went trucks pulling boats and BMWs and Audis, and it made me wonder about many things.

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    1. Yes sir, I walked about 35 miles that day up I-75 that day in 1976. I thought about many things too, not about people things though.

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  2. in some things perhaps it is better that we let society move on beyond us so that we can have a bit of peace...and not feel any need to keep up....

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    1. Right on Brian, there are some portions of society that have simply left me alone or I passed it by. Same difference i don't miss what i don't have.

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  3. I like this write up ... a lot, Mark, ... I feel exactly the same way... except ... I tend to "lose" different kinds of "coats" in different locations now, in order to give back ... smiles ... Love, cat.

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    1. Well Meowmomma that is the spirit of a generous soul, ever leave a wast length hounds tooth wool coat along the freeway in Ohio?

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  4. A hitchhiking friend of mine lost a sleeping bag once, in Arizona; turned up at Forest Park in St. Louis. You never know, or how . . .

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    1. hahahaah Goatman, I bet he was full of curiosity in that moment.

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  5. Depth of honesty and despair in your words Mark. I empathise and fully appreciate your feelings.

    When it comes down to the bottom line we need to ask: "What IS the bloody point of it all?" and struggle to find any point other than keeping the line going.

    The insect world will do far better than homo sapiens in years to come. Some species tend to keep going by fertilizing the female eggs and then the lady spider consumes the daddy spider. Seems to work well. What say you, Mark?

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    1. All i can say about that Philip is some days i want to be the female spider and others i am more than happy to be the male.Once the deed is done what point is left?

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  6. This coat tale will stay with me, thanks for sharing. If we can face it I think what we have is what we truly need, the basics. You realize what's important and valuable and cling on to that...which no one can strip away from you.

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    1. Ily There in lay the problem, most people don't know when to quit looking for more instead of just looking at what is right in front of them. My heart is what can not be stripped from me and others should realize that is the essence of a found coat, what you need you have when you need it and it is buried within.

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  7. I love the word "manna" -- as I was taught by my favorite pastor. There are two definitions for it.

    *The food miraculously supplied to the Israelites in the wilderness. Ex. 16:14–36.

    *Any sudden or unexpected help, advantage, or aid to success.

    I fell short the other day financially. I was really worried. I didn't know how I could ever recoup what I lost so carelessly. It was then I was opening up my mail and received an unexpected check for the EXACT amount that I had lost. It was owed residual sales that I received. So, I received "manna" -- what I needed at that time.

    The "universe" or your "god" or whoever and whatever is your higher power will always replenish what you need…not necessarily what you want.

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    1. Yep Deb, that is the essence of this true tale. I didn't know i needed it until i needed it but I knew to pick it up. This was a 70 degree day in Northern Ohio.
      That is the fortune the spirit of creation gives to all.

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  8. mark, i was in new orleans when coats and shoes were piled high in strip mall parking lots, there for people who had lost everything to sort through and take what they needed. i saw devastation and greed first hand there. but i also saw courage. i will never forget the goodness i saw in the faces and actions of the people who had lost so much and the volunteers like me who were there to help, not then knowing how much we the volunteers would get back.

    we both know i'm an optimist, but i'm a realist too. the world and society is hopelessly amuck. the usa is no longer a democracy. but when i reduce things down to their smallest level, i still find good people doing good works, living good lives. hopeful even yet. hang in, my friend. leave that place if hope no longer floats. i mean it.

    love
    kj

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    1. kj I can find greed in me too, i am no saint. What i am is one who has learned distinctly the difference, the coat was there for me, no other, when i got to where i was going I left it on a fence and it was there for the next one who needed it.

      I will most likely never get out of here kj, it is all a part of me now.

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